Obsessions....

I frequently come up with new obsessions. I'll read and read and read about one subject or another for 22 hours a day for a week, maybe 2. It's all I can think about, worry about, and sometimes talk about, to the dismay of my husband. Although I've learned to keep it to myself because of his lack of support.

'Why are you reading about THAT again? You won't go back to riding your bike.' or 'We're not getting a dog, stop reading about different breeds'. Ya know, just generally being a killjoy.

At the moment I'm obsessed, to the point of major anxiety, about what degree I want to get. I keep going back and forth between going ahead and getting my BA in nursing or getting an Associate's in say, Business Management. There's a method behind that madness. Although, knowing me, there's more madness than method.

My method though, makes sense to me. If I choose to go the Associate's route I can potentially get a job making double what I'm making now (I work at Wal-Mart, it ain't much, my goals are not too lofty) and THEN start working on my nursing degree. While I'm taking care of the courses for my Associate's I can incorporate the pre-req's for my nursing, no? Like, taking Biology as a Natural Science.

I figure by the time I'm 90 I may have a BA in nursing? Am I going around my ass to get to my elbow? I know that I want to get out of my job ASAP. At least, change shifts. I have no life at all through the week and on the weekends when I have time I don't have the energy to have a life. People don't stop calling your house all day long just because you work at night. They haven't opened any doctor's or dentist's offices in my area that work with my schedule, therefore my sleep is not a blissful 8 hours like a NORMAL person's sleep it. It's broken up. 2 or 3 hours here and there. So my main goal at the moment is to find a normal job with normal hours.

OK, so I would forgo the normal job for the normal hours. I'm wondering at this point what the porn shop down the road pays and if I can get decent hours.......

Would I be screwing myself out of precious time by pursuing an Associate's in a field that I don't really have too terribly much interest in. At least, as far as I know. I've never had any experience in anything but retail and waitressing. Sad, yes, but I'm trying to fix it!!!!!!

Anyway, I'm driving my husband insane. I keep asking 'what's the benefit of this degree over this one?' and 'what if I just plow right through nursing school' and I honestly can't even decide on a school!!!!!!!

Just another obsessions......at least it's not long hair anymore.....yeah....that was fun......